This weekend was really mixed but I feel I have come out of it much stronger! Saturday was another hard day, hubby spent the whole day doing things outside and everyone else nearby was either out or entertaining their own guests, so I was all alone and it was the first day I really felt like getting some fresh air - cabin fever had truly set in and I was feeling agitated. I again got really teary as I realised how dependent I am on other people, so spoke to hubby and we decided to go for a drive. We drove to a hill nearby (we live in the countryside) with a beautiful lookout and just looked at the view for a bit. We then went to his parents for a cup of tea and ended up having supper. Apart from finding it hard to get comfy anywhere other than my sofa, it was nice to get out of the house and a change of scenery even if just for a few hours. My mother-in-law played a card game with me for a while which was nice to take my mind off everything. Even though everything takes a very long time, having to hobble everywhere and only managing two minutes on my feet before my feet turn purple is tricky - but I strongly recommend anyone having this surgery gets out when they can once the first few weeks have passed - it will really help to keep you sane.
On Sunday we had really lovely whether so hubby drove me up to my sisters for a bbq. I managed to make it through eating an entire meal with my feet hanging down from the chair without them exploding - had to get my feet back up straight away afterwards but again little improvements are happening! It was again really nice to get out and to feel the sunshine for a little while.
On the downside I'm really sore and stiff at the moment, all of my muscles are tight and I can't seem to stretch them out to any satisfactory level. I really wish I could just put some trainers on and go running, or jump about on the squash court. I hate just sitting around, it really drags me down and anyone who knows me knows I am a busy, positive and energetic person, so I really don't feel like me at the moment. BUT whilst I'm moaning and being pessimistic, I must make it clear I am very aware that there is a HUGE reason I am doing this, that it is only temporary and for some people, things like this are permanent. So I never lose perspective and I'm trying with every day to be more and more positive and look forward to reaping the rewards of doing this.
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